Keep Calm and SPARKLE!

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As you venture into the uncertain world of motherhood, you find yourself overwhelmed by feelings. One of those feelings is back pain from carrying SO MUCH STUFF! I didn’t realize how much I put into my satchel purse to cut down on the number of bags I carry. I have the monster’s diaper bag {Praise God for potty training! This bag will be gone soon!} plus my purse. That doesn’t sound too terrible until you take a look at my purse and all the stuff I think I need to carry with me at all times. Take a peek…

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So I decided to bite the bullet and get another bag. I’ve set a goal recently to read at least one chapter of my Bible everyday. Some days that is easier said than done… but I’m working on it. That being said, Bibles are heavy… and bulky… and I don’t like the verision I downloaded to my Kindle {still searching for a better version} So I decided that I need a bag specifically for my Bible, devotionals, and journal/notebook. Just those three or four books would be a huge weight-loss for my purse {and the back carrying it } so it was decided. One Bible bag coming up. Only… the ones I saw {in my price range}kind of reminded me of a grandma… and not the “new” trendy grandmas that are sporting their Vera bags and matching accessories… I mean the way grandmas used to be with lace and floral and cross-stitched kittens.

There was a split second where I didn’t know what to do… and when I snapped out of it, my body had teleported to the Clearance aisle at Wal-Mart. Not a lot going on there, but my store is set up brilliantly with the clearance right next to the crafts {it’s like they know me}so I popped over to see what caught my eye. A 3-pack of canvas totes. Pink, grey, and turquoise. $6 for three bags… that’s a no-brainer. So I took them home and raided my art supplies. GLITTER!!!Oh, yes, this will do nicely. Now I just have to figure out what it is I want it to be doing…

To make a rather long process into a shorter, easier to follow process, I will just line up a bunch of photos of the different stages. I had two inspirations when I started; bubbles, and ombre.

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I really liked it… but it was not actually my style. It was a lot of fun to make, but not something I would carry. So it was donated to a good cause… my little sister.

Fortunately, while I had been waiting for all that glitter to dry, I had been playing with the grey tote. And through a little trial and error, came up with a bag that was much more “me”.

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I also added one of my favorite verses to the back side. “Trust the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6”

It is a lesson I struggle with daily, but I am also finding it easier to let God have it. There’s little I hate worse than feeling helpless, and for a long time that’s what I thought of when people said “Give it to God.” It felt like giving up. Like I was too weak to push through it, and expected someone to do it for me… and in a sense, that’s exactly what I’m doing. I am constantly saying “I need Your help. I don’t understand, and I can’t do this on my own.” And do you know what He says? In John 15:4-5, he says, “Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing.”

That last part is where I find comfort, oddly enough, because in those words – apart from me you can do nothing – He is telling me that it’s ok. I can’t carry my burdens alone, and I shouldn’t try. He is prepared to handle any and everything, but he’s also prepared to wait until I ask for help. I have to give up that ego, that pride that says I’m a big girl & I’ll handle it. Just a hint, for those who also struggle with this, it really is much easier to let Him handle it. {He can also do a much better job. Just sayin’.}

Well, I wasn’t planning a sermon, but sometimes they just come. I hope that means that one of you needed these words, and I hope they find you.

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